Today Aidad and I went to Mashita's house. She's engaged now. I'm happy for her. As usual when I see her she will ask me 'Kau bila lagi?' Balik-balik soalan tu jugak dia tanya. Even her own mother also ask. Hey, I'm happy being single! So leave me alone :P

Anyway my friend came back. Indeed a very good surprise :) Though I wish he would just tell me. I hate surprises. Buat suspen je. Hehehe.

I went to Parade just now. Met up with Kak Nina, Mami, Bapak and my adorable niece Amelia. She slept most of the time until she got hungry and was very cranky. After that baru ok. I played with her and I actually said 'gugu gaga'. Surprisingly she responded back and started talking in baby language that I don't even understand. I love seeing her cute adorable dimpled smile. It totally made my day. After that we went back to Kak Nina's house. After she fed Amelia she will hand the baby to me. It's like a routine for me to put Amelia to sleep. Said she slept better in my arms because ada cushion. Cis!

Anyway last Sunday, I went to Pyramid. Had an early dinner at Italiannies with Huda, Diyana and Latiff. The rest tak kenal langsung. But whatever because I had fun.

They sell Twilight perfumes! I wonder if it smells nice.

Not only do they sell perfumes, they sell a lot of things like t-shirts, hoodies, keychain, necklaces, rings and even bandaids. But what I want the most (I wish) other than the perfume is those musical box. It has Clair De Lune on it. I want it!!

My dad just got back from Jb. And he bought me this HUGE teddy bear that went up to my waist. He said I could cuddle with that ...THING! When I saw it my first reaction was ' Get that thing away from me'.

Damn. I hate that stupid bear! Why can't he buy a smaller one? Now the bear belongs to my sister. I don't want anything to do with it. Go away stupid bear!

I am currently listening to this song Carter Burwell - Bella's Lullaby. Over and over again. It calms me down. Then I switched to Muse - Supermassive Black Hole, Paramore - Decode, Flyleaf - All Around Me and Disturbed - Indestructible. I love Twilight soundtrack!

Today's presentation suck to the max. I messed up because I was so nervous. Next one will be in two weeks time. Damn damn.

I want Davidoff and Bvlgari perfume as my birthday present please Ayah? I still haven't claimed my present yet.

Hope is a dangerous thing, something I’ve learned not to trust. It’s something that leads to believing, and eventually it’ll come back to bite at you.

I've been out since morning and now I'm back. God, my feet hurts.

First thing we did was look at a few houses. One is at ss17 and another ss19. The second was beautiful. And got a lot of spaces too. I especially like the living hall upstairs. Luasnya. Best~
After that we went to Tesco to buy some groceries and it's very cheap.

Last stop was Ikano and The Curve. My, there are lots of people there. Cari parking pun susah. Anyway, I booked two books at Borders today. Twilight and New Moon. Total of two books? RM50. Cheap :) Can't wait to read both. I probably get it by next year. Hopefully early January. Cepatlah sampai wahai buku. Hehe :P

Okay, I'm off to bed now. I'm exhausted. Mama was so energetic today. Jalan sana jalan sini. Toodles~

Twilight was amazing. Slow but still amazing. It's so romantic too :) It has the the action-packed, modern day vampire love story. My sister was drooling the whole time. Keep on 'oohhh' and 'ahhh handsomenya' *rolls eyes* She's been in love with Robert Pattinson since he starred in Harry Potter as Cedric Diggory.

I guess he's cute. He's a bit pale and mysterious. And the cast ..semuanya hot and gorgeous!

Vampires, such fascinating creatures. I wish I could date a vampire. Lol. Crazy right?

I want my own Edward Cullen.

Psssttt.... do you know I have not even once set foot in Pavilion KL? So frog under the coconut shell kan? Hehe.

Anyway I have not been feeling well this past few days. I have a fever, my body's aching and a bad sore throat. After three days of swallowing tons of panadol which is so not working by the way I finally went to the doctor. They gave me 3 different medicines to swallow and a sore throat to suck. Ugh tak sedap langsung.

Before I went to the clinic, met up with some old friends for a short dinner. I haven't seen them in a long time. I wanted to cancel actually because tak sihat, but felt guilty. They were all looking forward to it and I missed them so what the heck. Redah je la walaupun demam. Before I went to pick them up, Nana called and ask 'Are you bringing Nisa? I said no. I always invited her but now dah jarang because they don't feel comfortable with her. That's why I always have to divide my time with them. Don't get me wrong ..they got along well but sometimes things can get a little bit tense. Whatever la.

Ok, I'm off to bed. Toodles.

My family from Alor Star came and slept at my house for four days. So I have been busy 'layaning' them. Believe me it's tiring especially when they are kids around. They bully me to take them jalan-jalan. They also likes to follow me everywhere I go even to my college.

As usual, if one of my little cousin is around, there will be a fight.
The yellings, slamming doors, making sarcastic comments, crying and being a drama queen.
God, it's giving me a headache. Why can't my little cousin and nieces get along?

I loathe people who is spiteful. Selfish. Rude. Evil.

Ayah said my little cousin is borderline evil. He can't stand her. I was surprised he said that because Ayah jarang mengata orang. He always kept to himself. He loves to talk but not gossips or mengutuk la.

To ~> Fazril (if you're reading this)

I miss you too. Sangat-sangat :P When are you coming back? I know kau tak balik december ni. So bila laa??

I want my Nando's! :-)

I spent almost the whole day at Mami's house because I missed Amelia. I couldn't go more than 2 days without seeing her cute little face.

I put her to sleep. A bit tiring. She likes people to hold her while she sleeps. And when I put her down to bed she'll cry. Haiyo! Suka kentut plak tu. Hehehe :-)

Should I just sit back and watch you realize the distance between us or should I grab you by the shoulders and say "I'm your best friend. I was your best friend."

My sister just called me a bitch. I cannot believe her. How rude that little brat!

She just slammed the door and went to Mama's room. Manja! Of course Mama will say it's my fault. I'm always the devil and she's the angel. Hah! Fuckin' hyprocrite that stupid two-faced brat.

Ugh I'm so mad I feel like punching her face. Hard.

Have you ever reached out for someone, only to find that they're too busy or too absorbed in their life or whatever to care?

I have.

I was always there for you. ALWAYS. So for once, why can't you return the favor? Why can't you be there for me when I need you to? You don't even care. Next time you need help, go ask your new best friend.

I'm always the last resort when your new friends are busy or working. Don't think I don't know that. I'm not stupid you know.

Puteri Amelia Jasmine

Today's presentation suck. I wanted to do a website and instead they ask me to do Iklan bersiri. Damn damn.

So anyway, I went to Parade with my family. Had dinner at TGI Friday's. Ayah's treat since it's my birthday today. Monday was Mama's birthday. Usually every year we would celebrate at home. We'll have BBQ and invite Kak Nina's family. But since Kak Nina dalam pantang and my sister ada SPM so susah sikit.

My gedik sis :P

My ever grumpy Mama

Malu-malu kucing konon!

Hmm?

Yummy! :P

My sirloin steak yang tak sedap mana pun. Huhu.

Unfortunately the desserts are not Halal. Bugger.

I just got back from Mersing. Spent the night there with my parents. I drove from Pagoh to Subang. Gila penat. Plus with Ayah warning me not to drive more than 120km/h or 'watch out' or 'don't stay too close. that is call tailgate my dear daughter' or 'cuba jangan dok kat fast lane. asyik nak memotong je kerja. we are not in a hurry' yadda yadda. Ada je komen dia. Bloody tension. Huhu :P

Now I need to do the damn proposals. So lazy.

I don't feel good right now. I feel like I'm having a fever. I hope not. So not the time. Tomorrow I have to go to JB. There's a wedding and my parents need a driver who happens to be me *rolls eyes*. I hope by tomorrow I will feel well. I already take some medicine and drank some Bali limau. Hmm delicious :P

I didn't get to see my cousin and her cute adorable little baby today. I've been seeing them everyday and rasa pelik bila tak jumpa. I have to see them tomorrow before going to JB.

I was browsing the net, minding my own business when I came across this awesome website. Look how it turned out to be! Oh I like. Weeeeee~

I have a new niece. Weeeeeeee ~

I'm so happy. Was born at 3.57pm and weigh 3.03kg. Ringan je. Sangat cute. And fair :-) hehehe

Mami and I was the first one there. We arrived around 3.30pm and waited around half an hour. We didn't get to see them right away though. Only Megat je.

Finally got to see Kak Nina pukul 5 lebih. I was there until 8pm. Then went home and then my sister pulak balik from tuition pukul 8.40pm. Merajuk tak dapat pegi .. my parents left her. So sapa yang jadi mangsa bawak dia pi sana? ME !! Haiyo~

Now I just got back. Been out of the house since early in the morning. Damn tired. I think I'm going to sleep now. Toodles~

P/S: I hope my cousin named her Puteri Amelia Jasmin instead of Puteri Amelia je.

I feel like screaming but I don't know what to say.
I feel like crying but I don't know what's the purpose.
I feel like laughing but I don't have the energy to.

I hope I am able to do my project after this so that I can graduate next year. Oh pls pls.
Harap-harap result ok.

It hurts. My gigi! Half of my mouth feel numb. Damn.

I haven't been to the dentist in years. Because I never really had any problem with it before. Until now. Haiyo! I knew I should've gone for a check up atleast once in a year. Or every 6 months.

Now I have a huge lubang. After the dentist checked, she gave me an injection. Boy, it's huge that damn thing was! My eyes wliterally went big when I first saw it. Well as big as it can get considering my eyes is sepet. Huhuhu :P Since I was little I am always afraid of needles. I loathe that thing.

I felt dizzy when she drilled my whole mouth. Rasa macam nak pengsan. My ear also sakit. I have an appointment next week exactly one week from now. The dentist will permanently tampal my gigi. Now it's only temporary and she said to only makan sebelah mulut saja. Cis!

This past few days I'm feeling so many emotions at once. I am annoyed, frustrated, mad as hell, angry and most of all I am hurt.

I dislike her immensely.

I've been avoiding her calls since friday and she has called countless times and I refused to answer it. I'm afraid I will blow up on her because I've been bottled it up for quite some time now.

When Mama collapsed after the meeting with her boss and colleagues I was so worried. She couldn't walk so she asked me to fetch her.

Since I have to drive home her car I had asked for my supposedly bestfriend for help. And you know what she fuckin' said? It went along like this 'Aku rasa tak boleh la sebab nak gi makan and beli lampu dengan bapak aku'. She didn't even say sorry. I would understand if she has a really important reason.

I rarely ask for help(as in major help) and the one time that I actually (desperate really) ask for it she basically said no. I know some people will say 'ala tak teruk sangat pun' or 'relax la' but really ..to me it was major. She just collapsed and it is not the first time and she can barely walk.

I really love my Mom and of course I wanted to help her in any way I can although sometimes I can be a bitch and a little harsh. But I meant no harm. Nasib baik la kawan dia tak balik lagi and she lives nearby our house.





Ugh, I'm so hurt. I helped her a lot you know and I did not ask for anything in return.

I'm smart enough to recognize the signs of depression in myself. The bitterness and hidden anger. I just didn’t know what to do about it than go about life as though nothing had changed. I need to vent my anger. I need to talk to someone. But I don't trust anyone right now. And if I do, they'll just judged me and say I'm just being mengada-ngada or naggy. Bleurghhh..

I said something bad today. Accidentally. I swear I didn't mean to. I mean I meant what I said because it was a fact but I don't mean to say it infront of their faces. It's insulting. Oh God. I feel terribly guilty right now.

Word of advice: Think before you act.

In my case, think before you talk.

Anyway, I went to buy groceries today with my maid and my sister. Mama couldn't be walk and Ayah still in pain so I have to be the chief of the house la kejap. Before that I went to fetch Mama's car kat RHB. Jammed gila. Haiyo!

Now I know who my true friends are.

My dad got admitted to the hospital today at SJMC. So I've been spending half my time there with him and my family. Mama dapat MC today so dia teman him the whole day. Tomorrow it's my turn since Mama had to work.

I woke up early today. I have to send my Dad to Sunway Medical Centre. He's been having this pain from starting from the thigh to the leg. We arrived there around 8.45am and the doctor came around 9.30am. He was the first to see him. After that he had to do a blood test and X-ray.

Since it's going to take awhile, my sister and I went home. Haha NOT! We went breakfast with Kak Nina and Mami. Then only we went home. Hung around til 12.30pm then pick up my Dad.

I'm a little bit tired today. Constantly went in and out of the house and I even sent my Dad to the clinic tonight. AGAIN. He's been complaining and moaning and it looks bad. Like it's really painful. The medicine the doctor gave doesn't work at all. So this time the doctor gave a stronger one. Hope it works. Kesian pulak tengok dia sakit.

Anyway, I'm off to bed now. Sleepy. Toodles.

First Time

Hello! This is my first time using this blog. Before this I used Livejournal.

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Hmm don't know what to talk about. Maybe later.