I have never been to so much training in my life. Since I started working under REAL Kids First earlier this year, every month there will be training conducted by REAL Education Group. The monthly training I have is related to my job as a Management Trainee. Yesterday and today's training is also related to my job but in a bigger perspective. It involves a lot of brain storming, physical activities and last but not least, PUBLIC SPEAKING. That was my biggest fear and number one enemy. I despise talking in public. This time, I am forced to do it. 

We were presented with a bunch of videos of famous people giving speech. All of us had to do it. I was picked to do Samantha from The Great Debaters. The first time I watched the video, I got chills. Her speech was damn good. Imagine little ol' me have to talk and act like her. My facilitator forced me to do 5 times before she said 'well done'. I feel like crying. In that video, Samantha was very passionate in her speech as she fought for her people and their education. I really had a hard time imitating her. After I was done, many people came to me and told me  that I speak very clearly except there was no anger and passion in my voice. Guess I have to improve on that though it depends on the situation in the future where I have to do more public speaking.

 I'm glad this training is over. I learned and benefitted a lot from this training. 

To conquer your fear, we must control our Little Voice inside our mind. Tell them to STOP discouraging us. Think positive. 

It's been awhile since I actually pick up the phone and call my best friend to rant. Normally if I'm upset, angry or happy, I would wait until our usual Friday meetup to talk. But this time I really can't stand it. It felt good to talked about it. Kesian Nisa, I really poured my heart out to her.

Thanks for listening.

No matter how old I get, I will always want Mama when I don't feel good especially when you are terribly sick. I even go as far as sleeping in the same room and same bed with her. Sometimes Ayah has to sleep on the couch :P

His call put a smile on my face. Definitely brighten up my day.

:D

People always say time heals all wounds … I don't agree with that. I believe it requires more than time, and the wounds don't disappear in a month, or a year, or even more … if they ever do. It requires work to give you a better way of dealing with the wounds, to help stitch yourself back together. No one can do it for you.

I miss you.

I miss you so so much.

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He's only a friend, and nothing else'
That's the lie you keep telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love...

It rained when I woke up in the morning and instead of turning back and going to sleep in that bliss of a weather, I trudged the heavy traffic with a heavy heart. How I wish I could be in bed, slumbering away until .....well...until I feel like waking up.