I got into a huge fight with my dad. He shouted at me and saying hurtful things. I didn’t even know I was making him angry. I mean REALLY angry. One minute he was fine and the next he turned into this big ugly monster.

When he left my room, my sister immediately came to me and hug me. After that, I didn’t even leave my room even when Mama came home. I usually greeted her and eat dinner with her. Basically spending time with her and telling her about my day and random stories.

Damn him for shouting at me. Damn him for making me cry. Damn him for his hurtful words. Damn him for his temper.


edited:

Okay, that was mean of me for damning him. After all he is my dad and my family. I let my anger control me. I'm sorry.

Ugh, now my head is pounding. My throat sore. My eyes all swollen and puffy.

Sometimes I get so weird ..I even freak myself out.

There are times where you don’t want to remember…and there are times where you want to remember things...

This was one of the times I wanted to remember WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED!!

How did we end up like this?

The main question is: Will we still be bestfriends? Will we be strangers? Faceless, nameless people with hearts of stone? Will we be together in the end of each year? Will we change completely for better or worse? Things change, people change, and people leave. They lie, and stab you in the back & disappoint you. They drop you like you weren't ever really important in the first place and hate you with as much love as you thought they used to have. They leave you and never look back.

Long overdue TAG

Here you go Hana!

--Tuliskan 10 perkara tentang orang yang TAG kamu--

--> Known as Nurul Hana Zakariah @ Hana @ Hana Banana @ Hanato
--> My bestfriend in college.
--> She got a sister who has the same name as me.
--> She's one of the most friendliest person I've met.
--> Loves to sing. Damn she can really sing her heart out. LoL :P
--> The girl has a talent in drawing. Ugh sangat jealous! hehe.
--> She hates a certain lecturer with passion!
--> Suka bergosip dengan makcik Odah a.k.a Aidad.
--> Her passion is photography and her Daden. LoL :P
--> A good listener.


--Masukkan emo yang kamu suka--

--> Emo? As in emotions that you feel? Hmm I love being happy (Like Duh. semua suka!). Giddy. Excited. Weird.


--Senaraikan novel kegemaran kamu--

--> Little Black Dress books.
--> My Bestfriend's Girl by Dorothy Koomson.
--> A Walk To Remember by Nicholas Sparks
--> Jemima J. by Jane Green
--> Clueless
--> Twilight by Stephenie Meyer


--Senaraikan 5 benda yang kamu sayang--
--> My purse
--> Laptop
--> My perfumes
--> Mobile phone
--> My precious books


--TAG 7 org dgn link di blognya--

--> Hana
--> Aidad
--> Fazril
--> Nana
--> Mashita
--> Whoever knows me.

My body's aching all over. Especially my arm. At first I didn't feel anything but when I woke up this morning, it hurts! I couldn't even lift my hand. I slept late last night. I've been out the whole day non stop. Then went to Mami's house. Had to help them move the furniture, make sure the door gifts are enough for 100+ guests etc.

This morning we arrived around 10+ because had to buy last minute stuff and ambik kuih kat USJ3. The marhaban thing starts at 11.15am. I mostly take the photographs and holding Amelia. She looked so adorable in her cute gown. After everyone had left, all of us lie down in the living room and sleep. Macam-macam bunyi ada. Tiup, snoring semua ada. LoL. By the time we went home it was already 7.30pm.

Now here I am. Kerja pun tak siap lagi. Mata still ngantuk. Mock up II is on thursday. Damn.
So many things to do. Arghhhh ....

I'm a worrier. A chronic worrier. I worry about everything and I think way too much. So this year(and many years to come) I need to cut down on unnecessary petty things so that I don't drive myself crazy.