To be honest, I am very pissed off and hurt for what she did to me. Or rather they but more specifically her. Okay I am not making any sense. My thoughts and feelings are all jumbled up.

I just ...well I wish I could take it back. I wish I said no. NO to everything. So I don't have to feel this awful feeling right now.

You gave me hope ..supposedly everything was arranged and then suddenly ..?? Poof ..nothing. Zilch. Nada.