You only point out other people’s mistakes. What about yours? Sometimes you are so fake, do you know that? You are the oldest among us and yet you behave like a child. Tsk tsk tsk …

You hurt a lot of people, not just me, by your actions and underlying words. Seriously, if you only knew how many people are so fed up with your attitude. If you keep up with that kind of attitude, you will have no friends in the end.

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I don't know why you are angry at me. I don't know why you blame me for something I did not do. And I don't know why the hell you are believing what others said about me. You knew me! You are closer to me than anyone else, and yet you believe them. I hate the fact that you fuckin' blame me. Do you think I am that desperate? I heard you cried because of me. How stupid of you? All of this could have been avoided if you just confront me. I thought you are a straightforward person. So what the hell are you waiting for?

Please do not make stupid assumptions about me. You aren't that perfect either. If you pick my faults then I will surely pick yours because believe me, you do make mistakes. In fact everybody do. You are supposed to act your age, not act like a childish person. If I had hurt your feelings then what about me? You did to me too especially about the stupid marks. It's like you think I don't deserve it. You probably do think that but hey, I don't want to accuse anything.

Everything is so fucked up lately. Thank God they are here for me. Thank you very much guys!! I appreciate it :)

Here I am trying to mend our friendship and at the same time wondering what I did wrong? I feel like a damn fool.

How could you?

Looking back, I have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so. Why? Because I was a coward.

They were all bullshit but people who didn't have anything better to do obviously listened to it, discussed it, and believed it!

What a month. What a week. What a day.

Damn, all this dramas are giving me huge headaches!

Cakap sana cakap sini. Tak puas hati sana tak puas hati sini. Geram sana geram sini. Sakit hati sana sakit hati sini. Cakap belakang sana cakap belakang sini. Semua sana sini. Cakap tak serupa bikin aje! Bikin sakit kepala aje!

p/s: one more thing, this one is not related to what I just said. Can I slap that bitch who pretends to be my sister's friend? I swear you say one more word I'm gonna slap your mulut-macam-cibai face. Whatever the matter was, is not your bloody business. Let them sort it out between them only. Jangan masuk campur. Tak malu ke? Macam la bagus sangat nak sound orang. Tau la alim, tapi dalam Islam kena nasihati dahulu. Bukan sound suka hati mak bapak kau aje.

For the past few months, I have been experiencing dizziness and nausea. Sometimes I blanked out for a second and it happened quite often. The dizziness can later turned to migraine which is worse.

I finally went to see the doctor today. He diagnosed me as vertigo ..for now. He gave me a few medications but if it doesn't get better or lessen, then he will refer me to SDMC. I really hope I didn't end up there. I hate going to that place. Besides, I went there years ago to see the ENT specialist. I have a phobia with that doctor. Such a perv!

I accompanied my Mom to see the results yesterday. Alhamdulillah it was okay. The lump was harmless. But the doctor said if it gets bigger, meaning more than 2.5cm then only you start to worry. Pheewww ..I was really worried.

Gotta go, dinner time. Then later continue with my never ending assignments.