We all make mistakes

Sometimes we lie

Just put on a smile that’s fake

But when you’re alone you cry

Make a promise, then break it

So just laugh along and fake it

It’s something you’ll need to bear

Because no one will ever care.

I am sitting in my parents room playing with my laptop while listening to my cousin babbling on the phone with Mama for the past 20 minutes. Kesian Mama. She looked a bit stressed out. I can even hear half of what he said because he talked so loud. Seriously when he starts talking he won't be able to shut up. Especially when he's angry. I'm a little scared of him sometimes. Two weeks ago I had to listen to him rant about something while eating. The conversation went on sampai ke kereta dan rumah. He really does have a lot of anger that sometimes I'm worried about him. It's not healthy to have so much anger. You could get a heart attack or something.

One thing about my cousin is that he's very protective when it comes to the people he cares about. So when people tries to hurt them, he'll get very angry. You know like a mother protecting her cubs. He won't care about anything else. I appreciate what he has done to my mother but still, we're family. Related to each other. I don't want my family to fight. Once we fight susah nak baik semula. It will take years and I'm not willing to go through that because I love them so much. And I definitely don't want to choose sides. I know they won't ask for it but still sides would be taken and lines would be drawn.

A little embarrassing and I was nervous but overall it was good. Hahaha :)

Guess what? My grandmother's maid ran away ..again! Tak sampai pun four months. Bloody hell!

You called and called and called until I pick up the damn phone. Then without saying 'Hi how are you' just bitched about your cousins and how they hated your father bla bla. After you finished off your little rant, you said you'd called back which I know you won't then hang up. Bitch much? Do I look like a freakin' doormat to you? Why the hell didn't you just call your stupid college friends? I'm sure they are willing to hear about your sob story.

I'm gonna miss you guys so much! Love you all.

Today's housewarming/doa selamat was okay and a bit emotional. I got to see all my relatives. My little niece was crying non-stop because she's not used to so many people. It took Kak Nina awhile to calm her down. After that she was ok but she doesn't like people go near her or try to touch her. Luckily she doesn't cry if I carry her around. I keep on singing 'twinkle twinkle' to make her smile because she likes the song and everyone wanted to see her infamous dimple. Hehehe.

I have to go to PWTC tomorrow. Let's just hope I don't get lost.

I have to go to PWTC tomorrow. Let's just hope I don't get lost.